why do i lie ?

often i have been criticized for lying. it leaves me in search of the answer of an ultimate question,”why do i lie?”.

to find the answer we first would have to find answer of these questions : does no one on this planet lie? do i lie for my own self? am i addictive to lying? what is a lie? should we lie or not? what would happen if there is no lie in the life?

let’s begin the hunt now.

as far is lying is concern, i could assure you and i know you would agree with me that lying is a very common phenomenon in human life. mohandas karamchand gandhi was a great liar as was yudhisthir and anyone else for that matter; debatable huh… we sure will talk about it but not now.

because here i ain’t talking about others. the question is “why do i lie?”. to understand it you would have to know a few things about me :-

if not with friends, i’m a guy who speaks very little. just that when i stay quite people ask a lot of question’s. so to avoid them i talk a lot. i tell them stories which often make them laugh or cry till the core of it and for certain people they are like, very odd stories. but they are funny; aren’t they? i often make my fun myself so others can laugh. i find it amusing and healthy as well.

i am very moody, short tempered and sometimes in my own shelf. at times i just don’t wanna talk at all. at times i only do wanna talk a lot. here comes the biggest problem. what should i talk about? few years back, i used to talk about myself. good,bad or ugly but everything about me. and while narrating if i was done with my stories, i would pick up some topic of common interest; in those days most of us were bound by a handful of topics – cricket,love and dreams.

i never had the luxury of knowledge of computer to get indulged in with them like this guy or a passion of acting like abhishek singh aka bakri or cricket like rajesh raghav. i was not in adventure sports like priyanka rawat, cards were not my field of excellence like arun thakur nor chess like omkar pandey neither carrom like abhishek anand aka pandit. i was not inclined to learn a new language such as spanish like garima singh or french like anup kumar . i was never into cracking as well like supriya tyagi

even if i had had any of above stated hobbies, knowing me, i could say, i might still have escaped them. with the time, i have observed no one wants to hear about anyone else more than himself. one of the major reasons i often get portrayed as a person who doesn’t say truth always is the fact that i trust everyone pretty fast. i take their words as the eternal truth and use them and later i find myself in a state of shock, i was lied to .

it happened quite a few times that someone promised me for something and i promised to someone else about the same thing. but if the first person doesn’t fulfill it, i am labeled as a liar. why? because i am the person in front to take everything. alas, i think it’s though to take pain on your own head but i have to do it sometimes because i believe if 100 people ditched me, it’s not the fault of 101st person. it hurts me more often than not, i still stand on this view because the day i will loose this quality, i will loose a lot.

this specially hurts when it happens between me and my dad. how is it my mistake only if i tell him that something could be done in a certain specific manner, i was told by someone. if that someone lies, how it could be my mistake. just because, i didn’t cross question him? daddy, doesn’t respect my statements much, for him i am spoiled brat. i am upto an extant but the fact is i never lie if it won’t hurt someone. and i am a man of my words when i say i will be there for you always. i think someone might testify it as well..or may be no-one can. it’s only me, deep down who knows that i mean it.

with the experience i have learned that every single person who talks a lot is prone to lie more than a person who speaks very little. lies could be intentional or unintentional. i mean i don’t do it intentionally except the time when i try to crack a joke or create a situation for a funnier incident, otherwise, it just happens. and i never ever lie to hurt someone. i had to lie to a lot of people about few things which i will reveal soon, i can’t take it anymore. the burden of hiding things from the people i care most, even though if i hide those to avoid pain to them. it’s enough, i am dying under it. wanna break free all shackles and finish it up once for all.

perhaps now, i can try to answer all those question i asked above..

does no one on this planet lie? “as far as i understand, everyone lies. the ratio of it and the intensity may vary from person to person

do i lie for my own self? “nah, i don’t anymore. i did in childhood when i was afraid of things. i wanted to be myself and if someone would stop me, i would lie to him.. ”

am i addictive to lying? “not exactly, but when i go in all truth mode, people cry. i am too ruthless to be polite and pleasant. not many have balls to take truth light-heartily. so i avoid saying truth only until i can’t take it anymore, which is rare”

what is a lie? “an intentional or un-intentional screw up of a fact, statement or dialogue for profit, fun or just habitually or in simple words ‘tell an untruth; pretend with intent to deceive’. ”

should we lie or not? “it depends on the situation, lying is not really a bad thing. it makes life easy and happy at times. just don’t lie for only your own profit or to hurt someone. it screws up your own image.”

what would happen if there is no lie in the life? “life would be too fucked up. we need lies in order to survive happily, human nature can’t take all truth sportingly.”

though, the fact remains that till date i haven’t lied on my blog and i intend to keep it this way…but i am still confused why do i lie at times? if any of you could help me find answer of this question, i would be highly grateful…. keep visiting