bhai, you got a girlfriend?

the other day, vaani (my ‘lil sister) asked me “bhai, you got a girlfriend?”. and i told her i would answer through a blog post as, it’s a question which i am asked time and again. mostly due to my mischievous behavior. yeah, i could be blamed for it. whenever anyone is in my vicinity, he/she feels strongly that i have a girlfriend and i am in unconditional love with her. while the later part is true , the former is ***** .(wait, i will answer it. the whole idea of this series of posts is to answer this question only. trust me or not, but, i am also searching an answer for this question) …

before i find an answer of this real good question, i need to intro-outro-spect myself. i often write about me. not that i don’t know that not many people read it or like it. but it’s the fact that i write it for myself not for anyone else. after-all we human are all intelligent enough to read others better rather they tell us about themselves. all of our five senses tell us about others in a manner that is unique.

smell (nose), touch (skin), see (eyes), listen(ears), kiss/taste (lips, tongue) makes us interpret a person in a unique way. i remember back from my college days, guys get to ragged real bad because some senior didn’t like their looks or voice or style. perception is a key of a better world, only if people understand that perception could be wrong as easily as it could be right.

so i conclude that i write about me for myself to come back after sometime and analyze and compare ‘how was i?’ and ‘how am i now?’ and alongside if someone gets to know me than what’s wrong, even it would it’s an added advantage when people get to know you, they understand you better and it improves relationships.

to confess a fact, i am not a conventional or traditional boy-friend material. i even believe i am not a good husband prospect . i am a bit lazy guy until i take shower. i am not exactly outgoing bloke, though, you would find me out of the  house on most of the evening as long as my wallet allows me but i don’t feel comfortable when i have a girl with me; too concerned about her security all the time.

(here is the trick: if you want me to do something real quick, push me under shower. you might not believe that i used to take shower before every cricket match i would play, if i  have to play two matches back to back, i would slip back after first match; take a quick shower and come back for second one.)

yes, i am funny, humorous, intelligent and witty but i am also a no-nonsense guy at the same time (which a strict no-no to be an ideal boy-friend from girls prospective) . i am rational, understanding, cooperative and supportive but i am also bit conservative and stern on my views (लोगों का हर चीज़ को देखने का अपना अपना नजरिया है पर मैं वही करता हूँ जो मुझे ठीक लगता है)

though i forgive easily as i believe only human do make mistakes and forgiveness is the biggest virtue, i don’t forget anything. if you make a blunder, i will keep it in mind always. you would often find me saying “how mortal life is”  and “मैं कल मर गया तो उसमे कौन सी अचरज की बात है, सब मरते हैं, only thing differs is when and how” but if you say it for yourself and i love you, you sure are gonne be on the receiving end of my mood swing.

i remember once mohit made an over-statement that i have got the cleanest heart. and i also remember he telling me that he, himself and one of my other close friend (our common friend) are two extremely complex characters he has ever come across. i wonder if he read me right to exclude from this list or may be he thinks to be complex is a real deal, which i don’t have? truly, he is too humble and generous to ignore my complexity or simplicity and accept me with all my flaws as his friend.

it’s true that he was right with his speculation about himself and the common friend. they are two out of many of my complex character friends. on the record i have a lot of friends who are complex, anup is the latest entry in this list which was updated about three years back. there has been a few additions post anup but they are yet to achieve the place others have achieved over the years.

biggest problem in courting or dating me is my volatile mood swings and my slightly complex dominating nature. you could make me do anything with a polite tone and decent use of simple words. but if someone tries to force something on me, i get mad. i have this rebellious nature to do things i am asked not to.

to be continue….. in……. yes, i was in love once.